my deferral request for minnesota law school has been granted! that means 3/4 of the next four years of my life have been figured out. oh my.

it will be chilly. thats a fact. but i'm excited.

So much to say. But I can't seem to put it into words.

so much going on: passover. visit to minneapolis. israel next year? work getting crazy. springtime! lots of visits from lots of people. opening up and getting settled in chicago, just in time to leave.

I just went through a bunch of my old livejournal posts from the beginning of college. All I have to say is, I've come a long long way, and i've still got more growing to do.

Life is hectic, but i'm excited because:

parentals here this weekend
DC next weekend
Noa and Zai (?) the weekend after.

yay!

for everything there is a season and a time to every purpose under heaven.

i'm scared.

of the jewish path i'm on. of having to make a decision about where i'm going and what kind of jew i want to be. i feel stuck between a rock and a hard place. on the one hand, i feel like i have one hand tied behind my back, that i can't push myself further, can't take aliyahs, or learn to lead services, or read torah in the environment that i want to be in. on the other hand, i believe myself to be authentically jewish and completely jewish. i used to get angry when people would suggest it. doing this would be some sort of acknowledgement that maybe i'm not. i feel that i am just feeding the fire that i so desperately want to put out in the jewish community.

i'm scared.

that i'm taking risks simply to avoid facing reality. i don't know what i'm doing next year. i don't know if i should go to law school now or later. i feel like i need a plan, a course, a reason to do what i want to do.

Law school acceptances are coming in.

its weird, because i don't want to go next year, and will likely defer. but its flattering and interesting nonetheless.

so far, in at tulane (with some scholarship $$) and minnesota.

yay fast turnaround.

i hate windchill. weather.com tells me that it is currently 0 degrees outside, with a windchill of -19 degrees. grossness. although (and i was having this discussion earlier today) everytime i go out in this kind of weather, I psych myself out to the point that when i go outside i'm like, oh its not actually as cold as i thought it would be. apparently this is a really crappy winter. yay!

'twas a lovely, although rather uneventful weekend this weekend. february is just a gross month in general so i'm looking forward to it being over.

also: obama sweep this weekend whee.

What I want to do with my life:

1) Change the world
2) fall in love (with someone who is willing to make it work)
3) explore the entirety of the United States

Seriously.

I have started getting really interested in the idea of community building, particularly within the Jewish community, and particularly how it relates to social change and effecting change. I'm interested in ways in which the Jewish community can be deepened and start acting on important local political issues as opposed to simply sticking with the israel issue or acting on global social justice issues (also important, but i'm a believer in think globally, act locally and change starts at home) I would love to make transforming the somewhat stagnant jewish community from within a part of my life. Although it is a potential for a career, i think this sort of work will stay as a part of my civic life.

I'm pretty sure I still want to go to law school. I think that i want to do social change law - by that i mean work on poverty law or housing law or immigration law and try to affect systemic legal change. not one of the more lucrative legal careers and i'll bet one of the more competitive, so we'll see.

its weird to have this kind of clarity.